I have just received an email from Mtn...something which I never expected.
I guess, when I told him I was in trouble with the management and couldn't talk to him openly he found a way of helping me out by searching for my email address from the list of addresses of teachers which he had used to create mail connectivity for the school. He had expressed his concern for me and wanted to know if my job was safe or not. I should tell him so that the committee can put up resistance to stop them from sacking me.
The mail touched me deeply and for several minutes I had no control over my tears.
I read and reread and reread the mail some hundreds of times. This mail gave me a proof of my being sane after all. The experiences of past few days have lamost made me doubt my sanity and righteousness. I wanted to reply him immediately but S advised me not to. Once bitten twice shy. I don't want to fall out of the fire into the frying pan. I don't know this Mtn and cannot trust that whatever info I reveal in my mail or conversation will not be mishandled. As it is I always stay away from opening my mail accounts from the school computer just in case I am spied upon...
I feel doubly bad now because at one hand where Mtn is sympathetic to my cause and wants to help me out on the other hand I cannot even trust him nor even answer his mail. What will he think of me?
After a lot of thinking I decided I would just send a non commital reply which cannot be mishandled even if anyone tries to.
I am still trying to come out of the trauma of being so hideously treated. The 'hows' do not bother me so much as the 'whys'. I fail to understand why the management was so brazen for something that was good for school.
Just look at it, how different it could have been if the school had supported me; and what support I needed?
I guess there are some serious faults with the attitude of the management. They are the boss and they want to control everything. The fact that it made me popular and close to the parents warned them in a negative way. They do not want teachers who can become popular enough to start exerting power. The socrateses of the world always get poison in the end just for this reason. The fact that I was becoming popular which gave me a certain power was the reason for their dislike.
This Stf especially looks to me like a character having plenty of shady patches. She is ruthless, relentless ambitious, will stop at nothing, honey and poison type of person.
Now I know they are wary of me. This Christmas play has done more for me that I am giving it credit for; it has brought me into a lime light which makes it difficult for them to get rid of me as easily as they did with other before me....
Mtn's mail has illustrated how the parents support me and I am deeply thankful for it.
I guess, when I told him I was in trouble with the management and couldn't talk to him openly he found a way of helping me out by searching for my email address from the list of addresses of teachers which he had used to create mail connectivity for the school. He had expressed his concern for me and wanted to know if my job was safe or not. I should tell him so that the committee can put up resistance to stop them from sacking me.
The mail touched me deeply and for several minutes I had no control over my tears.
I read and reread and reread the mail some hundreds of times. This mail gave me a proof of my being sane after all. The experiences of past few days have lamost made me doubt my sanity and righteousness. I wanted to reply him immediately but S advised me not to. Once bitten twice shy. I don't want to fall out of the fire into the frying pan. I don't know this Mtn and cannot trust that whatever info I reveal in my mail or conversation will not be mishandled. As it is I always stay away from opening my mail accounts from the school computer just in case I am spied upon...
I feel doubly bad now because at one hand where Mtn is sympathetic to my cause and wants to help me out on the other hand I cannot even trust him nor even answer his mail. What will he think of me?
After a lot of thinking I decided I would just send a non commital reply which cannot be mishandled even if anyone tries to.
I am still trying to come out of the trauma of being so hideously treated. The 'hows' do not bother me so much as the 'whys'. I fail to understand why the management was so brazen for something that was good for school.
Just look at it, how different it could have been if the school had supported me; and what support I needed?
I guess there are some serious faults with the attitude of the management. They are the boss and they want to control everything. The fact that it made me popular and close to the parents warned them in a negative way. They do not want teachers who can become popular enough to start exerting power. The socrateses of the world always get poison in the end just for this reason. The fact that I was becoming popular which gave me a certain power was the reason for their dislike.
This Stf especially looks to me like a character having plenty of shady patches. She is ruthless, relentless ambitious, will stop at nothing, honey and poison type of person.
Now I know they are wary of me. This Christmas play has done more for me that I am giving it credit for; it has brought me into a lime light which makes it difficult for them to get rid of me as easily as they did with other before me....
Mtn's mail has illustrated how the parents support me and I am deeply thankful for it.
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