Friday, 21 January 2011

Cl is ill. I wonder if she is pregnant.

As hadn't come to school since two days. I thought she had gone to Hamburg to work for the new branch but she came in today with her mom, looking a bit weak and beaten. She told me she had a nervous break down due to too much work pressure, stress and lack of mental rest. Now the doctors have told her to take time off work and not to think.
"I am told not to lie at home and rest. that's exactly something I have to avoid. Instead, I have to do things that can relax me, keep me emotionally happy and  occupied. I have to take a hobby, sports or something of the kind."

Cl started talking to me and told me she too had suffered this thing two three years back. She worked in a higher school where she taught class 8th. The work over there was entirely different from this school, "But it wasn't the work load but the internal politics and people's tricky, treacherous behavior that gave me nervous illness. I suffered so badly. Oh my God ! I had become listless, forgetful, self absorbed, melancholy, troubled, weak, suspicious. I just didn't want to talk to anybody.
I had to go to a Doctor and took medicines for nearly a year. The doctor prescribed the same things to me which As has been prescribed. I was told to stop working so I stayed at home for a few months doing nothing just watching TV, reading magazines,cooking etc. I tried to develop hobbies by doing 'cutting pasting' craft work, sport and other things and the like. Then when I finally felt better I joined this school. Oh, it was really horrible."

So, now I know why she double locks her ovals and why her t bars are low placed. Poor girl. Once bitten, twice shy. She really is like a frightened little mouse. So my guesses were correct that she painfully strives hard to stay away from involvement in any controversy and why no discussions and why the delicate diplomacy on her part....!

Unfortunately she fell ill today; stomach cramps, chills and shivers, weakness and nausea and feverish. Sounds like pregnancy to me but ....!
I admonished her not to work and that I will manage alone but she was hesitant to do so. We stayed indoors and did nothing just managed the kids I kept them involved so that she didn't have to do anything. She called her boyfriend and requested him to come and take her home but he couldn't come and she was afraid to go home alone as she feared something might happen to her on her way home. I offered to take her home but she declined.

She assured me again and again that she will be Okay and declined all my offers of help in work. Still, when my work was over I went to look for her to help her with the kids. Ndn informed me that poor Cl had became very ill and even threw up. Then she went home.
I was so afraid for her. I hope she reached home safely. I rang her but my call wasn't answered. I sent her a message. She later smsd back to me telling me that she reached home alright; she had had another throwing up on her way.

I feel so bad. Poor girl. I hope she gets well soon. So bad, that her boy friend couldn't come to take her back when she was really sick and scared too. I wonder if she is pregnant. I hope that she is because she loves kids and wants to become a mother but she is so much self effacing that she never expresses her desires even to her close people.

Dear Cl, please get well soon and may you find love and happiness in your world because you deserve it.

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