Today Cl had to be absent from school for half a day for a blood test. There is still the shortage of teachers in school due to many of us still being ill. In addition, both Mz and My were also absent due to their requirement somewhere else for the school. I am guessing some manager workshop or training...
There's a rule here in Germany that if you're "a certain German word" teacher which means something like under teacher or a trainee teacher then you can't be left alone with the kids; you only work in the supervision of the lead teacher. In this school there's also the rule that only the German teacher will be the lead teacher...! Also, my degrees which qualify me to be an experienced and an expert teacher, have not been translated into German which reduces me to the status of only a trainee - at least on paper and in terms of salary.
So once, in the past when Cl was absent and no other teacher was free to come to my group and I was handling my group alone, then Mz had very insultingly stated that I could not be left alone with the kids as I was only a trainee and then she had merged my group with another group.
Her statement left me seething like a freshly erupted volcanic lava for several days...! I have trained Cl, made every single decision about my group, led my group in and out of every big and little thing and made my group successful and the only successful group in the whole school and I am to be referred as only a bloody trainee?
I was desperately hoping to be left alone with the kids and was very very glad that both Mz and My were not present to prevent this from happening.
Mks came to me and asked me if I needed help.
"No, I don't." I replied happily.
"I know, that you're very capable and very well able to handle the group yourself but as you know-"
"-yes, I know that I can't be left alone with the kids but I don't see what other options I have."
"Maybe you come into our group?" He suggested.
"Mks, you have 20 children and only two teachers including yourself ( both trainees) If you merge my group you will have 30 and THAT will be crazy and totally unmanageable."
"Ya...but something else..."
"You want to come to my group or Bh? You're welcome!"
"No no, I have 20 children and I have only Bh to stay with me."
"Same way I cannot merge my group with Mk or Mz's group; they both have 20 children and they are without extra help too."
"Yes...maybe you can have An from the baby group; the baby group has 3 teachers."
"I have already talked to them. They have so many babies there that they can't spare An for me."
"So there is no other way. You must stay with your kids." He resigned and I rejoiced openly. " Let me know if you need any help."
I really did go ecstatic over my victory. Can't be left alone with the kids? What the fuck!
I guess, Mz, My or Stf, maybe Stf rang the school to find out if everything was Okay; Mks usually answers the phone and when he told her that Cl was absent then she expressed her concerns that I must not be left alone so he had come to tell me that I should merge...
I was surprised that unlike everyday, my kids didn't trouble at all. They were all nice, well behaved and docile. I was able to carry out all the planned activities as per the schedule without making any cuts anywhere and of course without any trouble.
Cl arrived at 11 o'clock and was in the kitchen when I and the children returned from our playground visit. I was very happy to see her but I confess, a remote corner of my heart lost the taste of freedom and dignity...! Do what I would, I cannot get rid of the humiliating thought that despite being everything in my group and for my group and shaping it completely, I am to be regarded as just a trainee - a bloody trainee!
There's a rule here in Germany that if you're "a certain German word" teacher which means something like under teacher or a trainee teacher then you can't be left alone with the kids; you only work in the supervision of the lead teacher. In this school there's also the rule that only the German teacher will be the lead teacher...! Also, my degrees which qualify me to be an experienced and an expert teacher, have not been translated into German which reduces me to the status of only a trainee - at least on paper and in terms of salary.
So once, in the past when Cl was absent and no other teacher was free to come to my group and I was handling my group alone, then Mz had very insultingly stated that I could not be left alone with the kids as I was only a trainee and then she had merged my group with another group.
Her statement left me seething like a freshly erupted volcanic lava for several days...! I have trained Cl, made every single decision about my group, led my group in and out of every big and little thing and made my group successful and the only successful group in the whole school and I am to be referred as only a bloody trainee?
I was desperately hoping to be left alone with the kids and was very very glad that both Mz and My were not present to prevent this from happening.
Mks came to me and asked me if I needed help.
"No, I don't." I replied happily.
"I know, that you're very capable and very well able to handle the group yourself but as you know-"
"-yes, I know that I can't be left alone with the kids but I don't see what other options I have."
"Maybe you come into our group?" He suggested.
"Mks, you have 20 children and only two teachers including yourself ( both trainees) If you merge my group you will have 30 and THAT will be crazy and totally unmanageable."
"Ya...but something else..."
"You want to come to my group or Bh? You're welcome!"
"No no, I have 20 children and I have only Bh to stay with me."
"Same way I cannot merge my group with Mk or Mz's group; they both have 20 children and they are without extra help too."
"Yes...maybe you can have An from the baby group; the baby group has 3 teachers."
"I have already talked to them. They have so many babies there that they can't spare An for me."
"So there is no other way. You must stay with your kids." He resigned and I rejoiced openly. " Let me know if you need any help."
I really did go ecstatic over my victory. Can't be left alone with the kids? What the fuck!
I guess, Mz, My or Stf, maybe Stf rang the school to find out if everything was Okay; Mks usually answers the phone and when he told her that Cl was absent then she expressed her concerns that I must not be left alone so he had come to tell me that I should merge...
I was surprised that unlike everyday, my kids didn't trouble at all. They were all nice, well behaved and docile. I was able to carry out all the planned activities as per the schedule without making any cuts anywhere and of course without any trouble.
Cl arrived at 11 o'clock and was in the kitchen when I and the children returned from our playground visit. I was very happy to see her but I confess, a remote corner of my heart lost the taste of freedom and dignity...! Do what I would, I cannot get rid of the humiliating thought that despite being everything in my group and for my group and shaping it completely, I am to be regarded as just a trainee - a bloody trainee!
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