Today, early in the morning at 6 am, I received Cl's message that she had fallen ill and wouldn't be coming to school today.
I hoped I would again be allowed to handle my group alone. It is not a question of independence or even superiority; it is just a question of rightful dignity. I terribly humiliated and insulting that I can't be left alone with the kids as if I were a criminal.
So, I got to handle my group alone yet again. Everybody regarded me with pity on hearing that I was alone with the children and asked me how I was faring, expecting me to break into tears or collapse with a heart attack. They were stunned to hear that I was exceptionally fine, in fact better than most days and the children couldn't be better well behaved or so well under control.
Even Jr the little German boy who cries the whole day and goes only to Cl was perfectly okay with me and had no objections in coming to me.
The only incident to mar my euphoria was Fr's pee pee. That boy's mother wants us to take him to pee every five minutes in school but forgets to instruct her husband to take him to pee before dropping him in the class. The result is he wets his clothes even before we started the class. And then, he either does pee in his clothes or shoots his pee onto his clothes while peeing in the toilet, or his pee drips down from the space between the cover and the toilet bowl all on to his clothes. And if none of these happens he drops water glass on to his pants! Whatever you do with him, his clothes are always wet!
Today he wet his clothes three times. No underwears were left in his basket or in the kindergarten stock. I finally gave him a diaper. The next time when he went to pee and sat down on the toilet, his pee steadily dripped down from the space between the toilet seat and bowl.
I have really become sick of this boy!
After we returned from the playground visit, Mks requested me to have the lunch with his group. I wanted to have it in my own but on second thought I gave in; I didn't want to refuse his every gesture of help and sound like an adamant snob.
After the lunch, we went to the toilets together and then finally to sleep - only my children and me in their new separate sleeping room.
While I was marking attendance for my group in the afternoon, I suddenly noticed with irony that my name is nowhere mentioned in the group record..! There is Stf - the owner's name, My and Mz the manager's name and Cl's name for group leader. Simply no mention of me as if I don't exist at all...This is a bit weird because this is a bilingual kindergarten where an English teacher occupies an important place in every group..!.
I am a bit worried now....
I hoped I would again be allowed to handle my group alone. It is not a question of independence or even superiority; it is just a question of rightful dignity. I terribly humiliated and insulting that I can't be left alone with the kids as if I were a criminal.
So, I got to handle my group alone yet again. Everybody regarded me with pity on hearing that I was alone with the children and asked me how I was faring, expecting me to break into tears or collapse with a heart attack. They were stunned to hear that I was exceptionally fine, in fact better than most days and the children couldn't be better well behaved or so well under control.
Even Jr the little German boy who cries the whole day and goes only to Cl was perfectly okay with me and had no objections in coming to me.
The only incident to mar my euphoria was Fr's pee pee. That boy's mother wants us to take him to pee every five minutes in school but forgets to instruct her husband to take him to pee before dropping him in the class. The result is he wets his clothes even before we started the class. And then, he either does pee in his clothes or shoots his pee onto his clothes while peeing in the toilet, or his pee drips down from the space between the cover and the toilet bowl all on to his clothes. And if none of these happens he drops water glass on to his pants! Whatever you do with him, his clothes are always wet!
Today he wet his clothes three times. No underwears were left in his basket or in the kindergarten stock. I finally gave him a diaper. The next time when he went to pee and sat down on the toilet, his pee steadily dripped down from the space between the toilet seat and bowl.
I have really become sick of this boy!
After we returned from the playground visit, Mks requested me to have the lunch with his group. I wanted to have it in my own but on second thought I gave in; I didn't want to refuse his every gesture of help and sound like an adamant snob.
After the lunch, we went to the toilets together and then finally to sleep - only my children and me in their new separate sleeping room.
While I was marking attendance for my group in the afternoon, I suddenly noticed with irony that my name is nowhere mentioned in the group record..! There is Stf - the owner's name, My and Mz the manager's name and Cl's name for group leader. Simply no mention of me as if I don't exist at all...This is a bit weird because this is a bilingual kindergarten where an English teacher occupies an important place in every group..!.
I am a bit worried now....
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