Today when I met Cl in the morning she said she had a bad news to give me.
"Bad news? What is it?" I asked eagerly.
"Let's finish our morning circle. I can't tell you before this."
"Is everything okay? Are you okay?" My heart had already started racing. "Are you leaving?"
"Wait, please. Let's finish our morning circle first. Then I will tell you." She implored.
We did the whole morning circle and all its rituals with my heart unsteady and mind completely boggled.
When we finally finished it and the toilets as well as handing out the snacks, she told me.
"I am leaving."
"What? Why? When? No..." I cried in disbelief.
"My boyfriend is getting a job somewhere else, far from here and accordingly I must move with him. I am so sorry. When he broke this news to me this weekend, I couldn't believe it either. You don't know, I have spent the whole weekend crying. I don't want to leave. I loved working here. "
I heaved a great sigh.
"You will get a job anywhere. That should not be a problem for you." I smiled sardonically.
"Yes, but I really did like this school. I loved working in an international kindergarten. Its doubtful if I can get such a school there. And even if I get, I won't have you. One of the main reason why I loved working here was you. It was such a pleasure working with you. You have been so good to me, so supportive, loving and caring. I know I might get another school another teaching job but I would never get another colleague like you." She broke into tears and I did too.
"I say the same about you. The reason why I liked working here so much was because you were so nice. I cannot even imagine my life here if Mz, My or Mk had been with me in your place."
"Same here. I have always considered this possibility; suppose I had Mz with me or my in place of you, I might never have survived even two months leave alone two years."
We clung to each other and wiped our tears silently. We both were looking forward to difficult tmes looming ahead...difficult changes...unwanted, unwelcome changes...an uncertain, apprehensive foggy future..!
Everything is going to change. Nothing would be same again.
I am asking myself how much it would affect me.
Personally, it is a great loss as I always thought Cl is one of the best persons I have ever known in my life. Professionally it means losing my independence, freedom, initiative and assertion. The group which I feel proud to have formed and developed was possible only because of her unobstrusive character which allowed me to do what I wanted. Any other teacher won't let me have my way, won't let me decide rules, subjects, themes, methods, everything especially if she knew that virtually she was the leader of the group. My compact comprehensive morning circles will change, our beautiful weekly email to parents will change, language ratio will change and God forbid, I will change if she doesn't speak English...!
I will never have another colleague like Cl!
My dear dear Cl, I really do love you and respect you immensely for your admirable personal qualities. You are one of the best persons I have ever known or am likely to know in future.
"Bad news? What is it?" I asked eagerly.
"Let's finish our morning circle. I can't tell you before this."
"Is everything okay? Are you okay?" My heart had already started racing. "Are you leaving?"
"Wait, please. Let's finish our morning circle first. Then I will tell you." She implored.
We did the whole morning circle and all its rituals with my heart unsteady and mind completely boggled.
When we finally finished it and the toilets as well as handing out the snacks, she told me.
"I am leaving."
"What? Why? When? No..." I cried in disbelief.
"My boyfriend is getting a job somewhere else, far from here and accordingly I must move with him. I am so sorry. When he broke this news to me this weekend, I couldn't believe it either. You don't know, I have spent the whole weekend crying. I don't want to leave. I loved working here. "
I heaved a great sigh.
"You will get a job anywhere. That should not be a problem for you." I smiled sardonically.
"Yes, but I really did like this school. I loved working in an international kindergarten. Its doubtful if I can get such a school there. And even if I get, I won't have you. One of the main reason why I loved working here was you. It was such a pleasure working with you. You have been so good to me, so supportive, loving and caring. I know I might get another school another teaching job but I would never get another colleague like you." She broke into tears and I did too.
"I say the same about you. The reason why I liked working here so much was because you were so nice. I cannot even imagine my life here if Mz, My or Mk had been with me in your place."
"Same here. I have always considered this possibility; suppose I had Mz with me or my in place of you, I might never have survived even two months leave alone two years."
We clung to each other and wiped our tears silently. We both were looking forward to difficult tmes looming ahead...difficult changes...unwanted, unwelcome changes...an uncertain, apprehensive foggy future..!
Everything is going to change. Nothing would be same again.
I am asking myself how much it would affect me.
Personally, it is a great loss as I always thought Cl is one of the best persons I have ever known in my life. Professionally it means losing my independence, freedom, initiative and assertion. The group which I feel proud to have formed and developed was possible only because of her unobstrusive character which allowed me to do what I wanted. Any other teacher won't let me have my way, won't let me decide rules, subjects, themes, methods, everything especially if she knew that virtually she was the leader of the group. My compact comprehensive morning circles will change, our beautiful weekly email to parents will change, language ratio will change and God forbid, I will change if she doesn't speak English...!
I will never have another colleague like Cl!
My dear dear Cl, I really do love you and respect you immensely for your admirable personal qualities. You are one of the best persons I have ever known or am likely to know in future.
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