Today was H's birthday party in school. Also, my first day after nearly seven day medical leave.
The first time, I did not send the weekly plan mail to parents this week on dot as I have always done since nearly two years without a single fail; I was too sick. And Stfn never does anything. If anything she broke her tooth two weeks ago and since then has vanished without a trace, like thin air. No mail, no message, no call, not even to her friends or her beloved flatmate. So, technically, ever since Cl left, I have made the plan for every single week and not only this, for every other work of my group, I am alone to do it. If I am present, fine, if absent, I have to do it when I return back to work. I am not complaining because this was what I wanted but still...
As always, I was so happy to be back and felt so bad that soon I have to carry out the unpleasant task of informing Stf of my resignation.
Today was also Kshk's third birthday party in my group. I had to pack his birthday gift, make arrangements for his party etc. all alone. Asy came but she was suddenly became very sick. She threw up a plenty of times, twice in the toilet, once in the kitchen sink, once in the hallway and once right in front of the toilet where Mk's children hang their jackets and shoes etc. She was looking so wane and dark and almost ghostly. She was constrained to go back home in a taxi.
That left me alone with the kids. Luckily there were only nine kids today and just a party so it wasn't difficult but it did prevent me to take pictures of H's birthday.
I was hoping Stf would come today. She did. I was in the toilet with the children when she saw me and she was soo happy to see me. She expressed her gratitude and happiness to see me back. It was heart warming...and it gave me an uncomfortable twinge in my heart....
I went to her when all my work was finished. She had just come in from outside and was going to get a new teacher sign her contract.
"I have something important to say to you."
"Is it very important?" She asked benignly.
"I fear, yes." I nodded.
The other teacher excused herself discreetly and went out.
"Stf, I have a bad news to give to you."
"What?" Her voice sank, as though holding her breadth and fearing the worst.
"I have to leave."
"Oh, no! Oh no! Not you! Not you now!" She stooped and embraced me with an agonizing face which anguished me even more.
"You must know that I am very very very sorry to leave. I love this school and don't want to go. And it is doubly painful to me because I do not want to leave at this particularly critical time. I do not want to cause you any disappointment but....this is the truth. I have to leave. Please don't be angry with me-"
She hugged me again and again and cried vehemently. "No, no, I can never be angry with you."
"Okay", she took a deep breadth. "Are you going back to India?"
"No. My husband resigned from his present company and has joined a new company in Bonn."
"And when is your last day?"
"Aah, this is the only good thing about this. I am not leaving immediately. I have to go there in the first week of July."
"July!" She ejaculated breaking into a relieved smile." So you are not leaving immediately? What a mercy! July is a bit far off. So I have some time."
"Yes. I am telling you in advance so that you have ample time to arrange for a new teacher and I can also guide him or her about all the duties and responsibilities."
"Yes. Yes. This is so nice of you. Thank you so much for being so kind to me." She hugged me yet again.
"I haven't told this news to anyone in the school yet, not even Asy." Said I."Somehow when the teachers come to know of something, the parents get the wind too and then they start panicking."
"Yes, you are right. We shall keep this news secret. Can I tell this to Asy?"
"If you want."
"Okay, so we shall keep this news only between ourselves and meantime I shall start looking for a new teacher to replace you. It is a great mercy that I know well ahead in advance."
"There is one more thing I want to tell you. Our plan of relocating to Bonn is definite but my husband is still considering other offers and...if he comes across something nice then we may not leave Munich after all."
"Really?" She cried joyfully. "You mean your going is just a possibility?"
"No. It is definite. It is 95% definite."
She joined both her hands together and looking up towards the heavens said earnestly.
"I will pray to God that He makes you stay. I will place my trust on that 5% of hope and pray fervently that you do not leave us after all."
I came out of the office feeling light at heart. There is nothing lighter in this world than a stainless soul, nothing happier than to see people around you happy - by what you did.
I have done my duty and, done it well, I believe. The rest is God's wish.
The first time, I did not send the weekly plan mail to parents this week on dot as I have always done since nearly two years without a single fail; I was too sick. And Stfn never does anything. If anything she broke her tooth two weeks ago and since then has vanished without a trace, like thin air. No mail, no message, no call, not even to her friends or her beloved flatmate. So, technically, ever since Cl left, I have made the plan for every single week and not only this, for every other work of my group, I am alone to do it. If I am present, fine, if absent, I have to do it when I return back to work. I am not complaining because this was what I wanted but still...
As always, I was so happy to be back and felt so bad that soon I have to carry out the unpleasant task of informing Stf of my resignation.
Today was also Kshk's third birthday party in my group. I had to pack his birthday gift, make arrangements for his party etc. all alone. Asy came but she was suddenly became very sick. She threw up a plenty of times, twice in the toilet, once in the kitchen sink, once in the hallway and once right in front of the toilet where Mk's children hang their jackets and shoes etc. She was looking so wane and dark and almost ghostly. She was constrained to go back home in a taxi.
That left me alone with the kids. Luckily there were only nine kids today and just a party so it wasn't difficult but it did prevent me to take pictures of H's birthday.
I was hoping Stf would come today. She did. I was in the toilet with the children when she saw me and she was soo happy to see me. She expressed her gratitude and happiness to see me back. It was heart warming...and it gave me an uncomfortable twinge in my heart....
I went to her when all my work was finished. She had just come in from outside and was going to get a new teacher sign her contract.
"I have something important to say to you."
"Is it very important?" She asked benignly.
"I fear, yes." I nodded.
The other teacher excused herself discreetly and went out.
"Stf, I have a bad news to give to you."
"What?" Her voice sank, as though holding her breadth and fearing the worst.
"I have to leave."
"Oh, no! Oh no! Not you! Not you now!" She stooped and embraced me with an agonizing face which anguished me even more.
"You must know that I am very very very sorry to leave. I love this school and don't want to go. And it is doubly painful to me because I do not want to leave at this particularly critical time. I do not want to cause you any disappointment but....this is the truth. I have to leave. Please don't be angry with me-"
She hugged me again and again and cried vehemently. "No, no, I can never be angry with you."
"Okay", she took a deep breadth. "Are you going back to India?"
"No. My husband resigned from his present company and has joined a new company in Bonn."
"And when is your last day?"
"Aah, this is the only good thing about this. I am not leaving immediately. I have to go there in the first week of July."
"July!" She ejaculated breaking into a relieved smile." So you are not leaving immediately? What a mercy! July is a bit far off. So I have some time."
"Yes. I am telling you in advance so that you have ample time to arrange for a new teacher and I can also guide him or her about all the duties and responsibilities."
"Yes. Yes. This is so nice of you. Thank you so much for being so kind to me." She hugged me yet again.
"I haven't told this news to anyone in the school yet, not even Asy." Said I."Somehow when the teachers come to know of something, the parents get the wind too and then they start panicking."
"Yes, you are right. We shall keep this news secret. Can I tell this to Asy?"
"If you want."
"Okay, so we shall keep this news only between ourselves and meantime I shall start looking for a new teacher to replace you. It is a great mercy that I know well ahead in advance."
"There is one more thing I want to tell you. Our plan of relocating to Bonn is definite but my husband is still considering other offers and...if he comes across something nice then we may not leave Munich after all."
"Really?" She cried joyfully. "You mean your going is just a possibility?"
"No. It is definite. It is 95% definite."
She joined both her hands together and looking up towards the heavens said earnestly.
"I will pray to God that He makes you stay. I will place my trust on that 5% of hope and pray fervently that you do not leave us after all."
I came out of the office feeling light at heart. There is nothing lighter in this world than a stainless soul, nothing happier than to see people around you happy - by what you did.
I have done my duty and, done it well, I believe. The rest is God's wish.
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