Thursday, 3 November 2011

Cl's and Mcl's B'day Party

So today was Mcl and Cl's b'day party in school.

While we were making preparations for the party Mz was saying something to me. I took the opportunity and dropped the idea that since there was no English teacher in her group, I could come to her group till the time another teacher was found and then I would go back to my group with Cl.
She was definitely shocked and did her best to hide it too. She appeared to be thinking "What? have you in my group? Never." She narrowed her eyes the way cats do when they are about to attack and then very sweetly - very sweetly replied that there was no need of this. She looked her cunning wicked best when she said that.

Ah! We both are enemies and neither of us is going to forget this no matter how tight hugs we give each other.


I made the introduction for the party and sang and clapped the age numbers and selected Ml whom Cl is very fond of, to give a small shoe box beautifully wrapped which contained the invitation letter and a pack of six apples to add reasonable weight to the box.
"What is it? It is so heavy...!"She commented while she unwrapped it. "Apples?" She cried disbelievingly. Then she saw the envelope. She opened it and stared at me questioningly.
"Read it." I urged.
"Oh...."
I was watching her closely and was almost getting nervous that she might not like the present. Her expressions were...slightly disappointed? I am not sure. Her reaction also appeared to me as a bit under. She just smiled and said thanks and we all got busy in serving cakes and drinks to the children.

I was definitely upset .- with myself for choosing something that coast me so dearly - and didn't at all want to look at her or talk to her.

Later when we came inside the class and were making the lanterns for St. Martin's Day next week, she said.
"Oh, thank you so much for the present. I love Indian food and so does my boyfriend. Can I give you a hug in return? And you made the introduction so nicely.." That pinched me even more. Does she think I am a total fool?
"The introduction? I don't think there was anything extra ordinary in that; I did it just like everyone else does it." I said.
"No, it was nicer. You used such motivational words."
"Well, I don't believe you." I replied flatly.

I am at a loss for words. What do I call this? Hypocrisy ? Diplomacy? Double standard? She had such different expressions on her face when she read the invitation. If she liked it as much as she was telling me now she could have told me so or even hugged me then. No. She takes perfect care not to let others know that she likes me and then when we are alone she starts singing "Oh you are so nice. You are soo this and that" Why this double behavior?

So now I know that her words are not to be trusted. She says nice things to me, praises me and says that she loves me only because I am her team mate and she wants to build nice relations. Outside our classroom everything is different. She feels ashamed even to let it appear on her face that she approves of me or is even remotely friendly to me.

I wish I hadn't given her that present. It was not needed...!

I don't want to work with Cl anymore.

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