A thought has suddenly struck me which I can only describe as suicidal. I want to go to Mz's group.
About three-four months ago, during our routine staff meetings, addressing the problem of shortage of English teachers in the school, Stf had asked me if I would like to go to Stf's baby group and I had vehemently declined saying I didn't want to go to baby group because my especiality lied in teaching well and you can't really teach babies.
"Well, then maybe you would like to go to Mz's group where you can teach since the children are 5 years old in that group." proposed Stf. But I declined that either as I didn't like the idea of working under her; I simply said I was comfortable with my present group and didn't want any change.
I was asked the very same question again roughly a month ago and yet again today during the meeting and every time my reply was the same - a firm rigid 'no'.But today a talk with Jn suddenly planted this idea in my mind. He asked me the same question again in private.
"Why don't you go to Mz's group? You will get to teach and the parents will love you."
"Well, actually, I have heard that Mz is a somewhat difficult person to work with; I do not want to court trouble."
"Well, she is a lot busier now because she has to do the manager works. That will give you plenty of opportunity to do what you want. Also, right now you are not considered as an educator but since Mz's group has bigger children you will be called an educator."
.....and I might be able to break free from Cl's fake politeness; she says she loves me and is dependent on me and can't do anything without me yet stays aloof in front of other people as she is afraid to let them know she is even remotely friendly to me, turns her back and ignores me on the train station and conveniently forgets even to write my name on the group register. While all this is still okay,she tries to reserve all the important or even significant tasks to her name so that parents think it is her work while actually it is mine....
About three-four months ago, during our routine staff meetings, addressing the problem of shortage of English teachers in the school, Stf had asked me if I would like to go to Stf's baby group and I had vehemently declined saying I didn't want to go to baby group because my especiality lied in teaching well and you can't really teach babies.
"Well, then maybe you would like to go to Mz's group where you can teach since the children are 5 years old in that group." proposed Stf. But I declined that either as I didn't like the idea of working under her; I simply said I was comfortable with my present group and didn't want any change.
I was asked the very same question again roughly a month ago and yet again today during the meeting and every time my reply was the same - a firm rigid 'no'.But today a talk with Jn suddenly planted this idea in my mind. He asked me the same question again in private.
"Why don't you go to Mz's group? You will get to teach and the parents will love you."
"Well, actually, I have heard that Mz is a somewhat difficult person to work with; I do not want to court trouble."
"Well, she is a lot busier now because she has to do the manager works. That will give you plenty of opportunity to do what you want. Also, right now you are not considered as an educator but since Mz's group has bigger children you will be called an educator."
.....and I might be able to break free from Cl's fake politeness; she says she loves me and is dependent on me and can't do anything without me yet stays aloof in front of other people as she is afraid to let them know she is even remotely friendly to me, turns her back and ignores me on the train station and conveniently forgets even to write my name on the group register. While all this is still okay,she tries to reserve all the important or even significant tasks to her name so that parents think it is her work while actually it is mine....
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